Plea Bargain

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Seated in the dark, encompassed by nothing but shadows
Not a sound can be heard but the keys tick ticking as the words flow from my mind
Outside there is peace, a pleasant calm that’s rarely found
Inside there is a war, there is fighting, there is hate, there is hurt, there is danger
There is a cry for help.
Imagining, hoping, praying; for forgiveness
Of sins but more so of the damage that has been caused
By actions that could have easily been avoided.
A coulda, woulda, shoulda situation that’s just eating me alive; there’s no excuse,
Stupidity, is not the answer
Pressure, is not it either
But carelessness; the frightening and painful truth, and the reason for my burdened heart.
To simply say I’m sorry would be nothing but wasted words
But the words that would be best to say, at this point I can’t think of.
Actions speak louder, as we can so clearly see
I’ll now make those actions positive to show just what I mean
Only one more chance is necessary, I’ve been changed I promise that
Cuz the pain I feel so far outweighs the pleasure that I’ve felt
It wasn’t even worth it, no, not nearly worth it at all
Like i’ve committed suicide but somehow I’m still alive
My heart has been ripped out, and the culprit, yes it was me, me, me
Standing here with blood drenched hands, guilty is my plea